السبت، أكتوبر 22، 2005

May be true.. (edited)

As my usual, chatting before I’d sleep. And as my usual talking to the same folk I talk to every night. Yet tonight was a bit different.
Wish I’d remember what triggered the issue of analyzing people. Or, yes yes,, I was talking about how I picturize some people in my mind. Everyone got a unique picture or figure in my imagination I draw through out our talks and how I feel them. So I told that friend: “I see you sad”.
Although you can never see him sad, I bet. I can’t remember a time I saw him frown or angry.. but somehow I do think of him this way.
Things went on right and left, and on the 1st straight forward answer he claimed: “and I see you as another face of the same coin of A”
mm.. Me and A, you are saying I look like A ?!
Incredible!! Had I lived 20 years of my life so as not to know myself that much!

I sat for a while between me and myself looking for an answer, then suddenly I started to write the above lines. Starting with the thgought from the very start till the end, may be I’d reach out similarities in any direction.
Eventually, I failed.

Ironically, someone popped up on my MSN to admit: I was never observed laughing before !
Did I really hear that?!
I yelled at my brother to ask, do you see me that gloomy person?
yet he preferred not to reply..

left puzzled..



And as I heard that from a friend late last night, I was kept skeptical nearly all day long. I ain’t exaggerating things, but discovering you know nothing about yourself while you are in the middle of self seek! Is truly too much.. especially that I respect my friend and trust some of his opinions as well.
So I asked

Me: do I sound aggressive when dealing with people?!
She: no, you are OK.. yet when you have to be aggressive, yes you are and strongly. You know when to show the frown looks.
Me: I don’t know how to laugh then?
She: who said so?!
Me: some friends told me new things to discover in my personality.. one said I am a different face for A!
She: A.. you mean the young lady who was with us last year.
Me: yes

On my way home I was thinking, may be there are some similarities between me and A.
Why not!?
May be we are different faces for the same coin.
Why not!?
Similarities then… !???
Differences either … !???
I don’t know..

She got some good traits I wished to have sometime. She ain’t that bad after all. May be I got that chance to look like her.. yea, what the heck!
I’ll go with my head up to the skies.. even if I might look like her, still I’ll be JUST me :)

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