Be-lated tag..

Answering Nesrine's, Engy's, Hechkok and Nermeena's tag.. Sorry guys.. I was out of connection.. and sorry again if my answers seemed shocking.. I'm seriously out of mood tonight..
And by the way, I'm tagging who ever wants to..


SECTION 1 - Last 1s?

1. Last beverage? tea
2. Last phone call? Days ago and don’t remember whom..
3. Last instant message? B. my friend :)
4. Last time you cried? Last June
5. Last text message? Google calender

Section 2 - Have You Evers:

1. Dated someone twice? Not even once..
   
2. Been cheated on? Yes
3. Kissed someone & regretted it? Never..
4. Lost someone special? Alot
5. Been depressed? More than alot.. now is one
   
6. Been drunk and threw up? Not in my dreams

Section 3 - List 3 Favorite Colors

1. Jeans Blue
2. Sea blue
3. Violet

Section 4 - This month have you

1. Made a new friend? Taking my 1st steps to...
2. Fallen out of love? May be a crush.. but not.. not even anything :S I’m turning shy.. that’s it..
3. Laughed until you cried? Nop..
4. Met someone who changed your life? Does that somebody exist?
5. Found out who your true friends were? How to know?
6. Is there something you want to tell someone? Yeah.. the P’s post.. badly
7. Would you kiss anyone on your top friends? :S I’m not into such way of life
8. How many people on your top friends do you know in real life? Hmm.. I like to preserve people in their positions better
9. How many kids do you want to have? None
10. Do you have any pets? Hate animals
11. Do you wanna change your name? I love it
12. What did you do for your last birthday? Zafa on twitter..
13. What time did you wake up today? 10:00..
14. What were you doing at midnight last night? Btnatat online..
15. Name something you CANNOT wait for? Working then traveling around the world..
16. Last time you saw your father? 3 hours ago..
17. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? Being a shy person.. I want to open up even more, and became more of a girl..
18. What are you listening to right now? A gritos de esperanza
19. Have you ever talked to Tom? Who’s him :S
20. Have you ever talked about someone behind their back? I won’t be a female if not :S
21. What’s the last piece of clothing you borrowed from anyone? I don’t borrow but books..
22. Who’s getting on your nerves right now? My dof3a…
23. Most visited webpage? Should I say? Prefer not..
24. Coke or Pepsi? 7-up
25. Have you kissed or been kissed by anyone in the past week? Whats wrong with kisses? OK.. a confession.. I don’t normally kiss people.. :S or even hug!
26. Mac or PC? Haven’t tried Mac.. so Za3fareno will do..
    

On rage

Terribly hate any male who give himself a damn higher right above any female because he believes he’s a higher creature sent by God to earth! While the truth is (in most cases), if you fetched down deep, those are even more childish than any normal female. They are even childish to a level kids will be embarrassed to think of!

Truly hate them. And if its not for me trying to behave, I would have .. well… burst may be.. Insulted most probably…… m3rafsh… bas all of those should be sentenced to else where… especially ba2a.. ah ba2a those who claim they are talking by religion and say this is 7aram and that is halal m3 nafsohom. And even eeeh! They don’t advise you, but more or less order you.
I bet now (in my case at least) ok.. I’m stubborn and hard headed… and I do “a3nd” and NEVER ever bend or surrender, no matter what I am to lose..

Let me give you an example…. We got a fun day, where each “dof3a” wears a certain t-shirt, representing its college memories. Believe it or not, some of the guys there are actually calling for a “5emar” for girls, and t-shirt for boys! MAN! I don’t wear a 5emar, and will never do. Why would I if I’m convinced with my clothes and even asked about it too?. I like me as who I am. My clothes represent me fully this way.
Let alone what I heard while I was talking to one of my Christian college friends, and her reply was “e7na nt7r2 ba2a!”…. :S
And she got a double point!

I don’t understand. I really don’t understand. I seriously don’t understand why females are making this “kolke3a” in such males’ heads!
I remember the same dof3a when a Lecturer –ALLAH ymaseh bl 5eer- said females must be better treated in our community; they even should get more rights than this. They should learn more than males. They should be higher regarded, higher respected.. And YOU (addressing the dof3a) should –at least- allow them to sit in the 1st rows.. YALHWI! There were demos after trying to take our places! Shof el zo2……

Memo told me to reply harsh on their posts on the forum and make my voice heard enough. Since females should never be afraid, plus such “heads” should always find who “ysokohom”. I’m just acting as how my father told me whenever I’d be in such situation I’d wait till someone answers. If not, I’ll do, provided I quitted being on rage..

And that’s but a sample for the outer society.
OK, thanks guys.. you got me hating it already


PS: Be ware, I’m not 3a2l el fasolya!

Today's lesson

How critically bitterly funny that is to find somebody wipe part of your memory, tailoring it to yet another of his own!

-- Thus I said..


Learn Never to trust a person who shows a black heart at the 1st block..

News break

Today was one of the strangest. Look, at the morning there was a simple interview in our IC lab for the digital project. (w ml a5r, kont mestabya3a). I didn’t care for anything. As if ba2a, that’s enough with the project, one more question is simple like trying to bring life to a dead body. Soo, the strange talk that happened didn’t really affect me, though the rest of the team went out of the lab with a “miserable sad” look on their faces. Guys! Answer me.. Since when we ever had such kind of oral conversations and we finished victorious!!!

After that, there was a sub meeting for the graduation project for the TinyOS team. I went too, you know, a3’atet shewaya :P.. and there for a second I had a strong feeling that I’m loved by ALLAH. I mean.. well.. the spirit itself I was looking for, and caused me my only 2 break downs I had in life entirely, as if its coming true now. I may be right or wrong, I don’t know. But seriously I LOVE my project team mates, all of them.

In the middle of our talk today, there I had to make a final decision for the optional subject I’m to take. Sadly, I had to choose a subject Bava is not going to have with me. Its like the 1st something we’d split into ever since we’ve known each other. But I couldn’t help it. I can’t study electronics. Not again. I hate it.

As I left them and about to take a bus back home, I met the TA who was with us in the Luxor and Aswan trip. Was really glad to see him. Soo, waved and cheered “aay, how are you.. etc”.. exchanged a little convo keda then every one went on his/her own way. Till I found a bus coming so I stopped it. Believe it or not, he took it with me too. That was fine so far till he actually paid the ticket. I was really searching for a crack in the bus floor to hide. Lol, that was a gentle act! Even though I don’t really like such thing…. You know.. that weird philosophy I have.. blalala… whatever.. I’m back home .. and no need to feel that embarrassed.. not anymore..

When I returned home, believe it or not I found the DSL is baaack! Hurray… so now I’m checking what’s missed in more than 3 weeks back. Phew! That’s a lot! People blubbered A LOT during my virtual absence.. I even got more to blubber myself.. yet as always for the coming couple of months or so, isA.. “No time”..

That was a quick re-cap for today’s memories, more of the same tomorrow morning :P at 9 o hundrerd hours.. make sure to tune in

TADA,, off I sign for PHP & MySQL..

Ezan.. Enaha el 7arb!

Ah! “Ya 7aloli ya 7aloli.. w da eh da elli by7sali..” quoting Dananeer..

Tb eh.. eh da ba2a.. eda ba2a da ba2a da..
w heeeh heeeh tadbesa..
lolooloy…

Ya abna2 nafs el mashroo3… enaho.. enaho.. enaho m3rafsh eh.. bas OK.. 7a lead tomorrow’s meeting.. w 2a2lebha dandara isA.. w elli 3ayz y2ol 7aga y2olha.. ana ma ba5afsh mn 7ad :P

Beeb beeb.. BLUE.. w Kaman beeb beeb BLUE..
W hoba eh, howa ah.. isA 7anksab…

:S tab 7abt tashge3 tani ba2a…. kol elli fi nefso 7aga y2olha to fill me with a push keda.. :S el inner esteem approaching zero level aaaaand steadily kaman…

Rabna ystor..

PS: Go Blue go.. teralamlam..

بصراحة يعنى..

وبعد كل مناقشة اشوفها له او مقالة أقرأها عنه، يظل مصطفى بكرى واحد من أكتر الشخصيات المثيرة للحيرة بالنسبة لى. فأوقات أحسده على حسه المصرى المتغلغل فى عروقه بغيرته الصيعيدية الاصيلة على بلاده، فاطمئن ان الدنيا لسا بخير طول ما فى ناس وطنيين مثله.. وأوقات أخرى، يأتينى شعور خفى يدفعنى الى الاقتناع ببراعته التمثيلية المفتعلة (وانه ناقصه بس حد يكتشفه).. وبين هذا وذاك.. لا أقدر على منع نفسى من مقارنته –فى مرات عدة- بدور "المعددة" فى الريف المصرى القديم (مع الاعتذار).. بس يكفينى طلبات احاطته الغير مبررة والمللة فى تكرارها على كل صغيرة وكبيرة و تقمصه دور الوطنى الوحيد فى المنطقة..
لاء والأدهى من ذلك الحوار المنقضى منذ دقائق على قناة المحور فى برنامج "90 دقيقة" بخصوص فيلم اذيع على قناة اسرائيلية عن الأسرى المصريين.
فى الأول شدنى طريقة حواره، وانفعالاته، وشدة تأثره.. بل وتكراره المطالبة باقالة الحكومة لمواقفها السلبية، ورخص الدم المصرى.. الى آخره من عبارات رنانة فى هلهلتها (أصله ماجبش حاجة جديدة.. ما انقطع نفس القنوات و الصحف مهاتية بنفس المبدأ).. ولكن ربما هذه المرة مصطفى بكرى (وربما غيره ايضا، لكنى أخصه الآن بالذكر) يلعب على وتر شديد الحساسية للمصريين. لانه تقريبا مافى بيت مصرى لم يذق الأمرين من الحرب الأخيرة مع أسرائيل.. الا انه سؤالى الموجه له.. أين كان الأخ الفاضل قبل الاذاعة حتى يعلى من طلباته ويعمل على تصعيد القضية الآن.. (لاء وايه... وهو لسا ماشفش الفيلم!!)

كل اللى أقدر اقوله حاليا جملة واحدة.. "كفاية بقى جنازات نشبع فيها لطم!!"

سلاماتى

بى اس: قبل عنوان "بصراحة يعنى.." كان فى نفسى كام عنوان كدة عجب.. بس رجعت وقلت يلا... الطيب أحسن..

3adi ba2a

Do not feel too proud of myself.
Do not feel shy either.
Its normal. Its ok..
Its going as it was and as it will.
But the best of all.. I’m not an idol anymore..
If I was ever thought as one
w 3adi ba2a